Today I scrapped something that made me cry...

The first photos that we have of Wesley!

These photos make me very emotional - not just for the obvious reasons - but because even 2 years later, it still makes me tear up that we don't have any pictures of him as soon as he was born. We weren't permitted to have cameras in the OR (I had an unplanned c-section), so the first photo we have is a horrible one, taken from the hallway, of the nurse cleaning him up in the nursery.

We don't have any of the great photos of him as soon as he was delivered, or the doctor holding him up for our first look, or him on the scale being weighed for the first time...

And it's not just that we don't have any photos... I think the most upsetting part is that I was so sick for about 2 hours after his delivery, I had no idea what was going on and I feel like I really "missed" the first two hours of his life, ya know? And at the time I remember thinking that I would be able to look through photos to see what happened during that time - but I can't.

Although I have scrapped hundreds of pages of Wesley in the past two years, scrapping his first photos is something that I haven't wanted to do because they make me cry. I know in the grand scheme of things, this doesn't really matter. And even reeading this makes me realize that, now, this sounds kind of silly...

Ah well... life goes on. :crying: So much for my mascara today!

you scrapped it perfectly!

You did a beautiful job!

It's a gorgeous layout!

I had the same type of experience with my first son. 23 hours of labor ending in emergency c-section. I didn't get to see my baby until he was 3 hours old and I *barely* remember it.

So, I guess I'm saying that I know how you feel. Its hard and I'm very sorry, honey.

P.S. You did a beautiful job scrapping that photos you *do* have of his birth.

Awww... I know how you must feel, but know that you have so many wonderful memories to scrap, and I think you page is beautiful!

I have some "right out of the oven" pics and I haven't scrapped then because ...well.. they're kinda yucky and I don't know how to make it look nice with all that... you know... stuff!

I had an emergency c-section last year, too. They took my guy off to the NICU and I didn't get to see him for 24 hours while I recovered. The only thing I had was dh's pics on his camera to look at. I was so stressed out, he was 7 weeks early.

So yeah, we don't have any pics of him being born either.

same thing here with my youngest. My blood pressure spiked and they thought it was best to deliver early. My son was 6.5 weeks early and I did not get to hold him for almost an entire day. What makes me upset is that they let his dad hold him and his grandmother hold him. I was really sick though and my b/p was not going down so I guess they were just more concerned with getting me back to normal

Voodoo_Bryn said:

I had an emergency c-section last year, too. They took my guy off to the NICU and I didn't get to see him for 24 hours while I recovered. The only thing I had was dh's pics on his camera to look at. I was so stressed out, he was 7 weeks early.

So yeah, we don't have any pics of him being born either.

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Aw what a sweet page. I can relate too...with DS I had him fast and easy and he was with me for a while in the room right after he was born. With DD I had to have a section and even though you're awake, it's still all fuzzy afterwards isn't it? I can remember them holding her up and thinking, "holy crap she's a big baby!" lol (and she was at 9 lbs 6oz) and then having her next to me for like 5 seconds and then she was gone and I didn't see her again for 3 hours. And of course no pics or videos..I don't get why they couldn't at least snap a pic for us after she was delivered. Anyway, sweet page!

Beautiful page, wonderfully scrapped. I know how you feel too, DH managed to get a couple of pics of DD on a phone (awful quality), and the first real pics of her are at an hour old.

You did a great job journaling, and the LO is beautiful. I had an emergency c-section with Ava so I understand how you feel.

(((hugs))) I don't have any piccies of ce till he was four days old. That was the first time I got to hold him. :[ Supposedly he was wheeled in his lil incubator to me ONE time during those first 4 days, but I don't remember it. It always makes me sad too that I dont have any of those newbie moments or memories.

I had a regular delivery, but I was so sick, my blood pressure dropped, I nearly passed out. I can barely remember Benjamin being born, only the fact that it took almost 2 hours to stitch me back up :s

It sucks when you can't remember, didn't get any pictures. I still get upset thinking about that day, what the doctors did to me, and how I wasn't even the first person to hold him. While they were trying to keep me from passing out and stitching me up, DH took my boy out to meet all the grandparents and everyone else, and I was the last to hold him. Sucked.

So ((hugs)) to you, I can totally relate.