Oh Adi!
Happy birthday to you!! I'm sorry your birthday brings sad memories with it. My grandfather died the day before my birthday and his funeral was on my birthday--nothing like yours, but it's always hard to face your birthday knowing what happened on it.
I wish you would have reached out to me today---I was just pulling junk out to sell at our upcoming yard sale. I would have much rather spent time chatting with you than working on downsizing!