I'm not sure if even *I* remember me...

[Amy Carey]

I had to request my user name to even log in. And then it says I last visited on 5/3/13. So much has happened since then. My sister wanted me to make something in photoshop for my great-nieces birthday and I had to install the software for crying out loud. And could not for the life of me remember how to do things that used to be second nature to me and that made me very very sad. Some of you know from facebook that my husband died in Saudi Arabia on his 42nd birthday 4 months ago. I've been lost ever since. I am not myself I don't even know who that is. But yesterday I felt a tiny spark of "want to"........to get back to something I used to love so very much. I used to be a sugarbabe for crying out loud but for the past 2 years my life has been a living hell and I got away from everything I love. I don't even know where to start. But I took 405 pictures of my great nieces yesterday...and I felt that "bug" starting to bite me again..the love of photos and scrapping and documenting life. I realized when I had to do my husband's funeral how important it is. Because i had been an avid shutterbug and scrapper, I had hundreds of great photos to choose from..was able to pull pages out of my albums and put together a book to display at his service and it only took me minutes. Im sitting here trying to edit those photos I took yesterday and I have forgotten EVERYTHING. I have to start over in so many areas of my life I guess this is just another one, and its important to me. So hi again...I'm hoping that i can get back involved in the community and challenges and just make some new/old friends .. I never would have known it was possible to be this lonely and miserable. But SSD always used to bring me such joy so here I am again ... to try again and see if I can remember how.

[lauren grier]

(((hugs amy))) I'm so glad you're starting to feel like getting back into the things you loved doing again. we're all here for you!!

[Libby Pritchett]

Of course we remember you, Amy! I was so sorry to hear about your husband on facebook. I can't even begin to imagine the pain that you're going through.

I'm so glad to see you back and hope that having a creative outlet again will provide a little bit of healing for you.

*HUGS*

[Julie Billingsley]

oh Amy, I'm so so sorry to hear about your loss. I had not heard about his passing. Big hugs to you and the kids. I just can't imagine. Glad to see you back here!

[nesser1981]

So sorry to hear about your husband!!




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[MamaBee]

oh my gosh, Amy! I'm so sorry to hear about your loss... many prayers to you and your family! I'm so happy to hear that you are dabbling back into scrapping... we have missed you!!

[SeattleSheri]

I'm sorry to hear about your husband, big hugs!

[rach3975]

I'm so sorry for your loss! Welcome back to scrapping and SSD. I bet it will come back quickly once you do a few layouts.

[Keely~B]

It's good to see you Amy, I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. Big hugs to you. I'm glad you're feeling the spark of something positive.

[Lyd]

Oh Amy. I'm so sorry for your loss! I'm glad you've peeked back in here, and that you feel a little bit like getting back to something that you loved. Big HUGS!!

[abm234]

I remember you! I am so very sorry to hear about you husband. I'm glad to hear that you are feeling a little scrappy. Maybe you should check out the new Art Journal trend going on - sounds like it might be a fit for all you've been through. Welcome back.

[lovely1m]

I am so sorry for your loss, Amy.

Welcome back to us! I hope you can find the passion again.

[carrie1977]

So sorry to hear of the loss of your husband. Big hugs to you!

[YepBrook]

It's so good to see your face here again, Amy! You haven't been forgotten. I am so sad to hear that you lost your husband. (((HUGS))) I cannot imagine the pain you are going through. words are not enough...

[staciahall]

I'm so very sorry to hear about your loss. I can't imagine it. I am happy that you're finding a little bit of joy again. We're all here to help you remember how to do the digi things you want to do. This forum is so good about supporting and answering questions.

[mrshobbes]

I'm so sorry about your husband, Amy! I hope dabbling a bit in scrapping can help so happy you said hello here


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[jacinda]

Huge hugs Amy. I cannot imagine the pain you've been through with the loss of your husband. Glad to see you back here though - hopefully you'll find some therapy in scrapping.

[adrianka]

Sorry about your loss... *hugs* and welcome back.

[joelsgirl]

So sorry to hear about your husband, Amy.

Maybe PS will be like riding a bike; once you get back on, it will all come back to you.

[Traci Reed]

We love and miss you Amy. I'm so sorry about what happened and it's good to hear that maybe there's a glimmer of yourself returning soon, though I know you'll never be the same. hugs and love to you!

[taracotta7]

I remember you! Sorry to hear about your husband. I can't imagine what you are going through. I will remember you in my prayers.

I am glad that you are starting to get that "spark" back of wanting to scrap! I think it may be therapeutic for you once you get back in the swing of things. Just take some deep breaths and then baby step your way through it. Don't overwhelm yourself! If you have questions or need help.......that is what we are here for. There are no silly questions. We all remember what it was like learning our program and starting digi scrappping. Hang in there! You have done it before (and did it well!) and you will be able to do it again in no time. Like riding a bike??

[Amy Carey]

Thank you guys so much for the warm welcome back. I had thought I'd try to do something tonight but instead I've been watching Glee of all things and just started the crying again. I don't know what triggered it. I thought I was doing better but the last week or so has been not great. I can't tell yall how it feels to see I've been remembered here. Maybe I need to go find a challenge or somethin. I really think/hope if I can get myself interested in something again I'll come back to life.

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[zakirahzakaria]

I'm so sorry to hear about your husband! **hugs**

I know how it feels...although I haven't lost anyone I love, I've lost myself a few years ago. And I know how you feel about wanting to feel alive again. I was hospitalized a few times in a mental ward for bipolar, and getting back to 'normal' life had been hard for me. Hospitals have always been my safety net.

I'm so glad that I have this hobby that is not just fun, but therapeutic as well. Have you tried Art Journaling? It can be therapeutic and healing.


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[jk703]

So sorry about your husband! Hugs.

Doing something that you love and getting back into it sounds helpful and that it might be just what you need to heal a little at a time. One step and one day, making the effort is huge.

[Rubia Padilha]

Welcome back!! I really hope scrapbooking can bring some happy moments to your life! ♥

(((hugs)))

[scrap2day]

I remember you. I'm so sorry about the loss of your husband. I'm glad you are back here.

[catgoddess]

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. *hugs* It's so unimaginable. I hope you continue to find a bit of joy with each day.
xoxo

[pomi]

Welcome back Amy. I'm sorry for your loss and will be thinking of you/keeping you in my prayers.

[BrattyMeg]

welcome back Amy (((hugs))) I hope you can find some joy in scrapbooking again