Take a break an i couldn't spell it d take a chance by Kristin Cronin-Barrow
Serendipity by Studio flergs
Template hope journal, open book and nature book (mixed them all together) brook Magee
oh gosh i'm so so sorry. I wish I could help you. I don't know what you are going through but as someone who struggles with very similar thoughts I want to offer you hugs even though that sounds completely dismal for what you need.