just a heads up
 

if you're in La's ct you already know all this. i'll make it short and sweet.

DH and i are getting separated. he doesn't feel like he loves me anymore and needs some time on his own to sort out things. we might end up back together or we might not. i'm going to hopefully get some low income housing and a job at some point i hope. don't know at this point if i'll be able to afford internet but i hope so. i'm completely heartbroken at this point. my face and eyes are all puffy and red from crying. i went and go milk and i must look awful; people kept looking twice at me, lol. we aren't fighting. we are civil to each other, but its almost like he's excited. at moving on and maybe finding someone else. and here i sit still loving him and feel like he ripped out my heart and ran over it with his truck. meanwhile his mom blames me cause i don't keep the house spotless but yet doesn't think he should have to help me. he should get to sit on the computer all day but yet i shouldn't be on it cause i have a house to keep clean and kids to take care of. i mean, yah i do have those responsibilities but i didnt have these kids by myself. he should help out too. i hate her. i'd like 'accidently' run over her. i think she is hoping i'll not get the kids so she can have them. or else she'll turn me in to welfare herself and claim i'm unfit. which i really scared she'll do. :(

so yah, if i'm not around much you know why. i'll keep everyone posted.

(((((((((((hugs)))))))))) to you. what a rough thing to go through. i will be thinking of you.

After all you've been through lately, now this? Oh honey. BIG big hugs.

Corey, I am SO sorry! I will be praying for you. A friend of mine is going through something very similar. Her husband moved out, got his own place, but I think he's starting to realize how lonely he is and how much she did for him. I'm praying that your DH comes to the realization soon! Sending lots of (((hugs)))!

Oh, Corey, I am so sorry to hear this. You are strong enough to handle this, I know it seems rough right now (and it is), but you can handle it. Hugs.

((Hugs))

I'm sorry sweetie :(

I'm sorry Corey! Big {{{HUGS}}}!!!

so sorry you're going through this, Corey. (((hugs)))

(((hugs))) Corey!! Your MIL may want to declare you as unfit, but it would take a LOT more than a not-quite-spotless home and a hobby to get them taken away. Don't worry about that, just concentrate on finding some work and getting yourself set back up. (((hugs))) again!

My heart breaks for you Corey...I am so very sorry. I hope the very best for you. BIG (((((HUGS))))) :(

Awww, I'm so sorry Corey! {{{HUGS}}}

(((((((Corey)))))))) You have been through so much the past couple of months. You don't deserve to add this on top too. Hang in there.

I'm so so sorry Corey! Hugs!

Corey, I am so sorry. I am praying for you and your babies.
And as for your mother in law, states don't take babies away from crackhead mothers. And I am pretty sure you are better than that. And if I recall, your husband has a diagnosis that would assure your getting custody.
Take a deep breath and feel free to pm me if you need to vent.

I kinda doubt youd lose custody of them just cause you MIL reported you. I know from personal experience how hard it is for the state to actually step in and take someone away. My step-dad was reported for molesting three of his four step-daughters and we were only taken away after the third report!! That was after several years had passed too. So a messy house and being on the computer isnt likely to make them step in. You will most likely be eligible for all kinds of financial aid and your husband will have to pay support for you and the kids. Hope he comes to his senses soon and you can work it out so you can remain together

Aw man, you don't deserve this! I'm so sorry! Please keep us posted as much as you can. Men can be such PITB's sometimes. I'm sorry!

I don't even know what to say Corey, I'm sorry.

Oh Corey.. I'm so sorry. I know that anything I say won't make you feel better, but I'll be praying for you.

((((Corey))))

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(((hugs))) Corey! That's awful! I'm so very sorry for you!

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. But if you need me, and I am sure La and a few others wouldn't mind coming over, ripping his arms off and beating him with them.:blink: That is always and option. But hugs sent to you either way.

I'm so sorry!

i like that idea, lol.

Corey, so sorry to hear this, I hope you 2 work it all out ((Hugs))

I'm so sorry, Corey! ((hugs))

hugs corey! I'm so sorry!

so sorry you are going thru this ((hugs))

i can't imagine what your going through, love. big fat hugs and prayers for you!!!

I'm so sorry Corey.

I am so sorry that you are going thru this right now...((((HUGS)))) Be strong and we are all here for you if you need us..

(((((HUGS))))) I'm so very sorry your going through this. I will keep you in my T&P.

{{{{hugs}}}} I hope everything turns out ok for you....try to keep in touch...we'll be thinking of you! ... and may I say it <MEN!> 8-P

Oh Corey Im so sorry babe, big huge hugs!!!

So sorry!

oh corey ((HUGS)) my thoughts and prayers are with you girl!!! What you are going through is the night mare for me! ((((COREY)))) We are always here for you!!!

I am so sorry, Hon. I am sending you lots of hugs and prayers. Men are so stupid sometimes.

I'm so sorry Corey {{hugs}}

I'm so sorry to hear this Corey. Big {{{{{HUGS}}}}} to you.

Corey- so sorry to hear this hon! I'll be thinking of you- let us know if you need anything! Hugs!

i'm just coming back online from a similar situation, though i'm the one who left BECAUSE of him never helping or respecting me. but in the end things work out! in some way shape or form, life always moves forward. just try not to dwell on it too much, which is definitely easier said than done. don't pin your hopes and dreams and happiness on someone else. no matter what happens between the 2 of you YOU are a strong person and you can make it work! just believe in yourself!

hugs

oh I am so sorry, This would be so hard. big big hugs to you.

I'm so sorry corey!

I'm so sorry, Corey. I can't even imagine the hell you must be going through right now. {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

((((((((((hugs)))))))))))

so sorry to hear that, corey.

Sorry to hear that Corey, huge hugs!!

*update-posted this in La's forum too*

as for me and Chad, i told him how i felt about his mom, how he lets her meddle in our marriage too much for my comfort and that she is wrong about a lot of what she think about all this. he said she is right about some of it. which is true; i do need to work harder at keeping this house clean, but he needs to realize that he's not perfect either. i know you all will probably start throwing things at me now, but i think we might try this marriage one more time. he says he wants to save up and maybe go us go move near his brother in Cali to get away from here. we have been talking about doing this for months. i'm not saying our problems will be solved, or if this is what we are definitley doing, but thats what he said last night. i just can't give up on us yet. i'm willing to give us another shot, and if things don't change then i can accept that we won't stay together. but i just can't let it go. i'm too stubborn, and i know there are still feelings there between us. otherwise he wouldn't still be affectionate toward me. maybe i'm stupid, i don't know. but my heart aches at the thought of not being with him. i know a lot of that is because i still love and remember the guy i met and fell for, but some of him is still there. i also know i can't change him or make him get better. i'm just not ready to give up. i'm going to look into going to school. that way i can better myself and if we really don't work out atleast i know i'll be on my way to financial independence for me and the kids. he says he wants to go to school too. i think that will do wonders for him, getting him out of the house.
please don't hate me for sticking with him, if thats what we decide. things are still up in the air at this point. my mom is going to shoot me, and my friend Amanda whom i was babysitting for doesn't want me to watch her son anymore with all of this going on right now. she is very protective of her son, for good reason; they have been through a lot and she is trying to get her life in order so i don't blame her for not wanting to get involved in my drama. but it would have been nice to hang out with her again. but i have to respect her wishes. Also, maybe if both of us spent less time on the internet ignoring each other and more time talking and maybe doing stuff we can get back the spark that has been snuffed out for so long. i think thats part of our problem too. we haven't been a 'couple'. more like roommates with benefits, lol. if he's willing to try again, then i have to be willing too.

(((Hugs))) Corey. You've got to do what you feel in your heart is right.