It is so weird. All through HS and college I was a very confident girl that didn't care about what others thought. I find that I have lost that a lot on facebook. It is so strange. All these insecurities came out. So mid 30's I am dealing with things people fought in jr high and HS it seems. Like I get upset if a friend from real life tells me she is too busy to meet up or chat on the phone but I see her post about talking to others on the phone and how her day was made with a great convo. It totally hurts my feelings. I am SO not that girl! It makes me mad what it has become to me. Is that making any sense? Another example is someone I was super close to (online friend) just "poof" disappear from commenting on my post, chatting and liking stuff but it SUPER active on other online friends posts. It seems intentional and I take it personally. Silly really but it still hurts my feelings and messes with my moods.
I don't like being this emo insecure girl! It is NOT who I am. (kinda ranting but hope it made sense. LOL)
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