[yari]

I see some of my friends that I have and I see how they are with each other and with other women. They seem to be pretty close to each other and find time to do fun things together, whether it's a lunch date, or seeing a movie together, or just hanging out at each other's houses. Now, I see this and I wonder, "how come that interaction is not with me as well?" And I start to wonder what I am doing wrong. Do I repel people or something? I also know very well that friendship, just like love, cannot be forced, but certainly it can be helped. So how do I do this? Anyway, I'm probably exaggerating. I have had best friends in my life and good friends, but those friendships don't seem to last "forever." I certainly don't have anyone I could just call up and say, "hey, let's hang out!" And then once I try to get close to someone, it turns out they "already" have a best friend and it's like I'm not invited in their little circle. This sounds so high school-ish. And I don't mean to come in here trying to get pity because that is not my intention at all. I'm just curious, how is it with you, how do you typically interact with other women? Do you have friends you do this kind of stuff with? Or not? And why do you think that is?