Reading this made me feel kind of down and yet not alone. For years I have felt defective because frankly I cannot find/keep a close friend. I have tons of acquaintances but long for that close friend that you can share with. Honestly, I have almost given up on the idea. We live in a rural area and getting out there meeting people is difficult. DH and I have talked about this several times and he reassures me that there is nothing 'wrong' with me. But then again I have trust issues after having been hurt in the past by friends. So truthfully I am self conscious and wary. Ugh…it is stressful just typing about it:|
Staying at home with DD is what I want to do but it makes me feel isolated and lonely. What I really wish is that DH and I could find another family with a child DDs age to be friends with.
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