Yari, it's like you took the words right out of my mind!
I think when I met you for all of 5 minutes, I said the regular greetings - I was too nervous. You were not repelling at all!
I can be shy, but once I know you, it gets a little easier. I open up, have a sense of humor! I don't put myself out there, it's a lot of work being a friend and I can be way to shy. I'm also intimidated by people I don't know sometimes, a bit afraid I will offend. Now, once I know you, then I usually speak my mind.
I was having a rough September, and I asked a close friend to go out to chat and get drinks. She knew something was off... and by the end of the night - she couldn't get past how much I shared. It was funny and we joked about it, and it made me realize something. I am overly private at times, and want to be a good listener, a good friend - but then I don't realize that I don't share back. Since that night, we've actually gotten closer.
I always feel that others will not remember me, I'm very forgettable, lol! There are lots of online friends that I would totally love to be closer to, even interact with more on FB/Forums... but I'm afraid. Even on FB, sometimes I wonder if I look like weirdo cause I liked or commented on things...it holds me back. I do think KCB is right in that we are lucky that we have our online friends.
Sorry for the novel... (I feel like I should delete some of this, too much info, lol!)