[LeeAndra]

Although I was involved in lots of different extra-currics in HS, I had three really close friends. Of those three, I have not talked to one since college, and the other two are BFFs with one another and live abt 20 mins and 45 mins, respectively, from me. I'm friends with all three on Facebook, but never see them or otherwise talk with them. I'm not really in touch with anyone else from HS though I love to peruse random Facebook pages of theirs when I run across them.

I was definitely a good gurl: never attended a high school party, never drank, never smoked, never cursed, never had s*x, etc. I was involved in all academic extra-currics and my church.

I mostly miss my college clique. There were 6 of us that did absolutely everything together all four years... until I met my ex-husband. They hated him and were upset with me when I chose to marry him, so they stopped talking to me shortly after college graduation. When we split up almost 3 years ago, I found a couple of them through MySpace and messaged them an apology and explanation. Their responses were lukewarm at best. This past Spring, they made Facebook pages, found me, and Bossy, the only one who lives out of state, invited us all to a dinner in June when she would be in town. I found out that of the 6 of us, four had stayed in contact since college, and I and another gurl had 'fallen off the face of the earth' after marriage.

I tried my best at dinner to be nice and upbeat, bygones be bygones and all that, but Bossy tried to humiliate me by calling me out at the table while we ate demanding an apology/explanation for my failed marriage. I'm sure I posted abt it here and/or on my blog.

I had two awkward dinners with one and her children a couple times and invited everyone except Bossy to take a trip back to our alma mater for a show, but no one's made any effort to see me, speak to me, or hang out with me except a random Facebook status reply every now and again. Three of them live in Indy or a suburb thereof, so it's not like it would take much effort.

It's just sad to me when we are all so close for so many years. I haven't had a group of female friends or even any really close gurlfriends since then, and I miss it.