Big hug, Adri. Your situation isn't easy at all and you have all rights to feel all the ways you feel. What Jacinda wrote "What will be will be" - sometimes one just has to let the things happen.
And with the pressure that you are making on yourself - perhaps it's something in the air, I have it too for today. But I think I can suspect PMS.
Just that you can imagine, an hour ago I decided to pluck my eyebrows, while I was cooking lunch, answering a question of my DH about a card payment I made a week ago and managing my two DDs and a neighbour's daughter at play. How to make yourself a wreck in just ten minutes using four simple things.
