Jess, I can't even begin to put myself in your shoes, so I hope I'm not overstepping by commenting. But maybe you shouldn't put so much pressure on yourself to make everything special for everyone. You all went through (and are still going through with your husband's medical issues) a horrific thing. That's not going to go away because you give everyone a "special" Christmas. This could be the most perfect Christmas on record ever in your family and you know what? It's still probably gonna suck because this is the first year you don't have your son to celebrate with. No amount of special can overcome that I don't think, I don't know.
I know we all grieve in our own ways and everything, I just hate to see you putting so much pressure on yourself to make everything special and perfect for everyone else.....
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~Colleen~
Re-attempting a creative life after far too long!
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