Hope you feel better soon Adi.
My head is in a dark place as well right now. Whenever something positive happens, the next day, it backfires twice as hard. I lost count on how many nights I cried myself to sleep the last couple of weeks.
It affects my scrapping as well. I can't seem to concentrate. I'm trying to scrap my Vienna photos, but so far there's only one layout I love. I threw away all the others.
But remember, even after the darkest night, the sun will come.