Thanks for the replies ladies. I always find hearing from other people so helpful. You've all given me a lot to think about, especially about the depression. It is rampant in our family, but I've always leaned more towards anxiety.
My mom suffered from depression for years, and Lord help me, I do not want to end up like she did. Of course, she was not willing to get help for it, but I am, because I do not believe in suffering in any way. Life is too short.
I woke up this morning and just made myself do stuff; housework, etc. Then I gave myself a time limit to watch TV and afterward, I did some designing. It's been the best day I have had in a while. All in all, it was the first day in a while that I have felt productive. I'm gonna call it a win.
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