Lorie, I can relate to everything you and the other ladies have written here. It's been a really tough year for me and I'm making some big changes in my life. I've come to the realization that my job (911 fire dispatch) is seriously harming my mental health and it's affected every aspect of my life. So now it's about fixing that and getting myself feeling like me again.
I agree that what you described sounds like depression, so I hope you'll take the steps necessary to deal with that. It sounds like you're moving in the right direction already... sometimes just making the decision to do something, and then doing it, is the hardest part of the battle.
Anyway, all of that is just to say that you're not alone. Go ahead and vent when you need to. This is a safe place and we all love you. Hugs.
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