[scrapmonkey]

I was just watching a show this morning where a couple videotaped their decision for the husband to have a vasectomy and no longer have any more children. The wife said the last child was "bittersweet" as she knew that while the child was precious, it was difficult knowing it would be their last. I imagine you are feeling the same way. Hopefully in the end the decision will make you cherish the children you do have all the more, as that woman felt.