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Originally Posted by tanyiadeskins
I am pretty much a loner as far as socially out there. I am close to family members and my daughter and I talk daily, we hang out with family sometimes two or three times a week ... but that being said thats as far as I really go.
I am not saying this as a sob story but I grew up in such a way that I still feel like I am bothering people when I try to talk to them or want to be their friend. I do not know how to go about it. I always feel like they are too cool for me. For the longest time I was so used to people being mean that I put up a horrible, angry wall and now that I am learning to live with out that wall... its kinda lonely without friends.
So, I think I am really social but with maybe a select few trusted people. lol Does that make sense.
I am also guilty of being honest and open though I have learned to be a little gentler about it over the years lol
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Makes total sense to me. I grew up feeling the same way, which is why I preferred being on my own. Not that my parents were mean, but my brother was sick and needed their attention, so I was taught to be quiet, entertain myself and stay out of the way. I still do that except for the quiet part. I was shy and had a stutter when I was little so I didn't talk much. That has changed over the years. But I need to learn that gentler thing you are talking about.
