Am I crazy!?!?!

[mummytothree]

So for 6 years I have been telling my hubby to get a vasectomy. When baby #3 was about to be born he said he thought he was done..so I said...if I end up with a c-section I'd get my tubes tied...if not he had to get the big V. Well no section happened so I told him it was up to him.

Well then we decided to have #4 and again I made him the same deal as before, well no section again so it was up to him. Fast forward 10 months and we had an oopsie and got our 5th little babe and again I told him same deal as always. Well once again...no section and once again he dropped the ball and never got snipped.

Well for the past 20 months I have been begging him to get the snip...I blew up a few weekends ago and told him I was tired of him messing around and pouting about getting snipped and it was time to hike up the big boy panties and just get it done!! So he made an appointment and had his consultation and it's scheduled for June 13th and I can't stop crying every time I think about it!!!

I mean as soon as he came home from his appointment and told me the date I just started bawling and now I don't want him to get it at all!!!

But the even crazier thing is I don't want another baby...I don't want to be pregnant again. The thought of giving birth again is enough to give me an anxiety attack. The reason the big blow up happened is because I was like a week late and when I thought it might be because I was pregnant I had a full blown panic attack!!!

So is this normal....did any one else feel like this when their hubbies were gonna get snipped? or and I in fact just crazy!?!?!