Sweet Shoppe Designs

Forward,Back, Inward, Twisting

Template: Amy Martin
Scallop Papers, heart ribbon: Sweet Little Thing by Zoey Pearn
Background papers (blended), House element: No Place Like Home by Meghan Mullens
greenish/white frame, heart: Blooming by Jay Design Studio
Earth stamp: Space Cadet by Julie Billingsley
Red Paper squaresTwisted ribbon, leaves, flower: Summer Cottage by Melissa Bennett
Flowers, Heart scatter, glitter scatter, arrows,
Brown arrow: go your way by libby prichett
White/Yellow flowers,frame, notebook paper, staple,stitch: Grow by Erica Zane

Journaling:
Grandma,
I know you’re watching and I hope I’m making you proud. I have learned that in life I was spoiled when it came to your love. I want Owen to have grandparents like I did, but it’s proving to be hard when it feels like he gets over looked becauseI am his mother. I’ve had a hard time these last few years from dealing with your passing alone, to just realizing how I relied on you a lot to help me deal with daily stresses or just someone to talk to. Especially when we found out in May that we miscarried after trying for about a year. That broke me almost as bad as when I lost you. It hurts to deal with it alone because I feel like I wanted a 2nd baby to much. But mostly I hate that I feel like I failed Owen. Everyone he knows has siblings and after watching my sister have her 3 beautiful babies, and other friends have babies he has finally asked me when HE can have a sibling.. Before I miscaried I remember how his eyes sparkled and how excited his voice sounded when he asked if I was pregnant. Then I remember how he looked like I crushed his hopes and dreams by saying no. I knew you were watching me that day and helping me know it was right to spare him from the hurt I’m feeling right now. I have to keep a positive thought that we’ll have another baby soon that I should be lucky to even have Owen. I just have to have a little faith that it will all work out for us in the end. It can’t rain forever and you’d want me to just have a little HEART