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Journaling: How crazy is it that one of the biggest reasons I don't make big changes in my life is because I am content as I am. I know I could be happier, but since I am not unhappy I don't want to rock the boat. I'm not lazy, it just took a long time to get to this point. Between John's death, my cancer and the loss of my dad, I feel like I spent a long time just trying to survive. My contentment has been hard earned, so making a conscious choice to change things is not easy. Would a relationship really make me happier or would it be a new source of stress and perhaps heartbreak? Part of me wants someone in my life but there is also a part that simply doesn't miss the complexity of a relationship. I keep going around in circles on this subject, getting no where and making myself dizzy. I wish I wasn't so damned content. Perhaps being unhappy would the the catalyst I need to make me look for my own happily ever after. Is there a better life out there, just waiting for me to find the courage and the desire to seek it out? I may never know.