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Mischief & Mayhem by Heather Roselli
Journaling:
Thinking about my inner demons and what thing in my life haunts me the most I know emphatically it is the ability to forgive. Some people seem to be able to forgive and let things go no matter how bad they have been hurt and while I can forgive those small things that happen I do not find it that easy to let go of the big things. I guess by letting go and saying I can for give I feel like I am saying to that person that what they did is ok and I feel like I am then opening myself up to being a doormat. I know that is not true and I know by letting go I am freeing myself and not allowing them to control me or my life any longer but it's harder to do then to
say. While I understand these things I think that I may struggle with this always.