Oh, Amy! Your journaling is so beautiful and heart wrenching. I wish I could reach out and give you a hug. We are all flawed and damaged, and some people really need to remember that they aren't perfect and have no right to chastise.
PS...I really do want to ask about your fear of fish
Loving the arrows that track the direction of the journal.
Beautiful and raw journaling there... Hugs and kudos to you for being honest with yourself on this. :hug: