Sweet Shoppe Designs

Done for SSD July Portfolio Challenge Number 28

Journaling:

If only I could stop dreaming about doing things and just do them. I feel like the cowardly lion sometimes... if only I had the courage to live that life that I dream of. A life free from negativity, free from the chains that bind me and make me feel like I am less of a person. I am so sick and tired of hearing people with their positive bullshit about the past being the past and just get over it and move on with your life. Well, screw you! I am not sure if I am just more messed up than most, but I just can’t dammit. I can’t quit feeling like a worthless piece of shit that is not deserving of love, attention, and appreciation. It went from just having low self esteem to having agoraphobia and not being able to go to the grocery store. Sometimes it is that bad...I just can not bring myself to face the outside world and all of its criticisms. It is so much more loving, comfortable, and safe at home. Some days I am perfectly fine and can enjoy Disney or a concert or just going to the gym...if only I could figure out how to get rid of this, if only I could do those things I dream about doing that would make me feel fulfilled and happy, whole and secure! Maybe tomorrow... maybe.


Using:

Currently by Traci Reed
Dream Big by Traci Reed
Be the Good by Traci Reed and Meghan Mullens