June 9th 2024...marks the most somber year gone by in my life...It has now been a year since my beloved Ray has passed away from Terminal Brain Cancer...In reality,I know he has passed away...but for me...a year just seems like days sometimes...I held a special memorial for him on June 9th...I still cry everyday...I relived each day he was in the hospital right up until his actual passing on June 9th 2023...I miss him just as much as I did a year ago...He was such a bright light in this can be cruel world...All he ever did was spread love & light in this world & help everyone he ever met,even strangers...How can life be so cruel & unfair...It just wasn't his time to go yet...& I sure wasn't ready to let him go either...Now my life is sad & lonely without him...I now know that I will never get over this loss in my life...He was my everything in this world...I have never felt so all alone,in my whole life...as I do right now...I just hope I can find the strength inside...to try to find some hope...So I can somehow try to move forward...in my grief recovery...
Thank You! to everyone who left such kind & thoughtful comments on my other grief therapy layouts...This is such a difficult topic to scrap about and post & for people to read about...It really does mean so much...xo Rhonda
Credits : Am I Lost? : Bundle : Little Butterfly Wings
Photos : Red Ladies : Courtesy Of Pixabay [extracted,blended & reworked by me]
*Blue Poppies : Courtesy Of Pixabay [recolored & reworked by me]
*Red Wood Puffed Hearts : Courtesy Of Pixabay [reworked with Multiple Styles by Mommyish]
Registered: February 2012 Location: Netherlands Posts: 1,416
Mon July 1, 2024 12:47am
Rhonda I can't even begin to imagine how to deal with such an immense loss. I can however imagine that it still hurts after a year. You lost your soulmate and that must feel like loosing a part of yourself. I do hope that all the good memories over time will help soften the raw edges. They did for me after my mom died. It also took quite a while but finally it has become less painfull to think about her but I do still miss her like crazy. I think that feeling will probably never go away but it is less painfull when I think of her now and I am able to focus more on the good times and the tons of fun we had when she was alive. That is what I wish fo you too. For now just feel what you feel. It's a process that is different for everyone. Sending you lots of hugs!
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