Help me calm my nerves, please!

[FireWolf]

I have my very first doctor's appointment on Friday with my new doc. I haven't actually been to a doctor in about 8-9 years. Yes, I know, bad me. I hate doctors, needles, anything to do with the whole medical thing.

Truthfully, if we didn't want to do IVF in the next year or two I wouldn't be going now, but in order to even think about getting pregnant we need to get me healthy and as pain free as possible.

I had a bad car accident 19years ago and then a serious horseback riding accident about 18 years ago severely injuring my spine. I've dealt with it for the most part drug free and on my own for the past 13 years. However that has taken a serious toll on my weight because I can't "do" much physically.

Right now I'm having panic attacks just thinking of Friday and all that poking and prodding and the serious possibilty of surgery in my future. Plus a think a great deal of fear over her telling me a baby cannot be in our future. I just called this afternoon and didn't expect to get in for at least a couple of weeks, but no, 8:45 am this Friday so now i'm freaking out.

Thankfully, I don't have to go alone...DH will be working from home so he can take me or I doubt I'd even go.