where do i go from here? (super long personal vent post)

[catgoddess]

Please don't blame yourself. We are human and hindsight does funny things to us. We don't always realize we're making a bad choice at the time because we don't have future events to guide us. Accept your present the best you can and make the best choices you know how - no regrets and no beating yourself up!

As a child of a single mother who grew-up with her grandfather as her only father figure, your kids will be OK without such a bad influence in their lives. I knew from a young age that my father was not a good person and through my grandfather's example, I learned that unconditional love doesn't only come from a parent. Love your kids and do what's best for you and for them and you will get through this very terrible time.

My heart is with you. Be strong and be gentle with yourself.
xoxo